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Burnout



After several months of near constant stressing about work deadlines & topsy-turvy project schedules, I finally came to terms with the fact that I had burnout. 

Recently I've had a growing sense of apathy & general disinterest towards work. A deep feeling that I can only describe as a feeling of treading water, with no hope of forward momentum or progression any time soon. The tasks I've been managing & proceeding through are important but feel very much in the auditing, administrative & policy driven arena; rather than the outcomes focused problem solving I'm more accustomed to. 

It's odd however, until I recently took some much needed time away from work that I realised I was also in the grips of the complete antithesis state of full blown obsession/worry over messages, deadlines & not blocking other people's progress by them waiting on something from me. Subconsciously I think this last stems from having a burning need for this process to finally be done so I can actually move on to "greener pastures" of new projects.

Thankfully that horribly brief but super restorative time off allowed me to recharge. Also the fact our team has started a new completely different style of project calling on some older skills that haven't been flexed in a while, has made a massive difference.
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